It's just me. The one you know, or the true me?

Sunday, May 29, 2005

I'm trying to take off the protective cover which I had on me for the longest time. It's time to do so. For years, I have been living within a protective cover which my family, friends had given me. A guide to fend me from the real reality and the outside world.

When I realised that it's time to give it a change, it was rather difficult to adapt to it in the beginning. For it was then when I'm exposed to the real reality of live, about how people live and about how sarcastic one can be. But I'm glad and was sorta relieved to experience these changes. At least, my protective cover had now turned into a mirror, with feedbacks for me to reflect on how I am as a person, a daughter, a sister, a friend. And when I heard things like I was bossy, demanding, naggy and all, I wasn't a bit upset. In fact, I'm happy. For only people who truly cares for you will tell you their most truthful thoughts.

However, there's always two sides of things. I begin to know more about the people whom I had once considered them as a true friend, but only to end up in disappointment. The reality makes me understand how human beings worked. When we are 'stuck' with a certain person/ or need to rely on a person for something, we will usually say good things about them. Sure, it's good when we are at that point of the relationship. But when changes were implemented in the relationship, the once heart- to- heart feelings were gone. And all seems to be measured by how much we can exploit off a certain person. Is it really this case? I wasn't that sure.

Have been thinking about some stuff and the way I 'operate'. And when I see people whom I consider them as 'true' friends, I would ask them if they had ever hated me for a moment of their life. I heard "NOs" as answer. But it wasn't what I had wish to hear, for I believe no matter how close friends two people may be, there will always be some emotions that we can never overcome with towards these people whom we really care.

Something I heard: The easiest way to open the door of a person's heart is to give an answer which can be greatly accepted to the person who asked the question!

Human relationships are too fragile. It should be taken with extra care and concern!

Just Someone posted at 1:24 AM